Staying sober - but I'm starting to struggle. Just feeling down the past few days. My BF is out of state due to the incident we had several months ago - almost 4 months to be exact. It's hard. I miss him. We are trying to work through things in addition to our sobriety. Days like today though make me wonder what I'm really doing.
In order for him to come back, he has to take anger management classes. It's ordered by the court at this point. He's not doing it. He keeps saying he's going to sign up, but he never does. So the court date keeps getting re-scheduled, and the no-contact order is still in force.
Makes me feel like I'm really not that much of a priority to him and is really making me question my decision to "work things out". How long am I suppose to hold on? When is enough enough and it's time to let go?
I had a flight booked for next week to go see him. He said he may have to travel for work, during the exact same dates. I never told him I booked it, I just told him to let me know what he plans on doing. He's not the most responsible person in the world which makes things like this difficult too. It's 4 days before I was suppose to go. I just cancelled. He still hasn't made his plans, but I'm not going to go at the last minute. If he can't be considerate enough to make his plans so I can travel, then I'm not going to see him.
He apparently isn't too concerned about seeing me - which again makes me question, why am I holding on to this guy?
I think I need to put an expiration date on this relationship. It's starting to feel pretty one sided. I'm glad he quit drinking, but that just isn't enough at this point.
I know his court date is coming up next week - I'm feeling hopeless and doubtful that he will have signed up for his classes by then. It's heartbreaking. I think I just need to give it 1 more month before I throw in the towel. I do love him, I miss him but I can't sit here by myself being in a relationship. I'd rather be single and go out, this is just miserable for me.
You don't treat someone that you love like this.
In order for him to come back, he has to take anger management classes. It's ordered by the court at this point. He's not doing it. He keeps saying he's going to sign up, but he never does. So the court date keeps getting re-scheduled, and the no-contact order is still in force.
Makes me feel like I'm really not that much of a priority to him and is really making me question my decision to "work things out". How long am I suppose to hold on? When is enough enough and it's time to let go?
I had a flight booked for next week to go see him. He said he may have to travel for work, during the exact same dates. I never told him I booked it, I just told him to let me know what he plans on doing. He's not the most responsible person in the world which makes things like this difficult too. It's 4 days before I was suppose to go. I just cancelled. He still hasn't made his plans, but I'm not going to go at the last minute. If he can't be considerate enough to make his plans so I can travel, then I'm not going to see him.
He apparently isn't too concerned about seeing me - which again makes me question, why am I holding on to this guy?
I think I need to put an expiration date on this relationship. It's starting to feel pretty one sided. I'm glad he quit drinking, but that just isn't enough at this point.
I know his court date is coming up next week - I'm feeling hopeless and doubtful that he will have signed up for his classes by then. It's heartbreaking. I think I just need to give it 1 more month before I throw in the towel. I do love him, I miss him but I can't sit here by myself being in a relationship. I'd rather be single and go out, this is just miserable for me.
You don't treat someone that you love like this.
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