Today marks 24 hours sober for me. I can do this. I am strong, and determined to make it though. This isn't the first time, but I so do hope it is the last.
I've been a disgusting mess. It's time to quit drinking - I've been doing nothing but making an ass of myself. I don't drink everyday, but I do binge a few times a week which is not any better. I can't handle my alcohol anymore and I can't control the stupid, embarrassing shit I do when I get drunk.
Do I really want to destroy everything? It's not worth it.
Stop fucking everything up because I think drinking makes me feel better. I'm a coward. I need to face my emotions head on like a big girl. Stop feeling so insecure about myself. I'm smart, beautiful and I had my shit together at one point. I need to get that back.
I need to work on me and stop worrying about him and what stupid fucking thing he's going to do next - because you know it will happen and there isn't a fucking thing you can do about it until it does. He's 72 hours sober right now which is awesome, but I need to take the time to fix me as well.
Fuck everyone else and their opinions of you and what you should be doing according to them - do you and get it right.
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